Wednesday, September 16, 2009

RIP,iddy.

one does think, as one gets older that one gets immune to grief, or at least that one can put it into its place and leave it there and let it wither away by lack of attention. not so, if only...
iddy died last night in my arms, and i can not stop crying...its just a dog, i try to tell myself, but that is not what is- was, not at all.She was a character, a personality and very much a part of our life here. just growing up, beginning to be a person, and then there were the things she stood for; the two years or so, that i cooked for bhp, and iddy, my treat for completing my little share of the project (well, i hope),a reminder that- what? that it can be done, than one can triumph over adversity, logistics enz. and have fun doing so....
i can not look anywhere without thinking that i will see her, skipping about, chasing a chicken, barking at a bill collector, or hiding one of her many treasures carefully behind the jackfruit tree. her reddish fur a streek of colour in the rainy season's green as she decides to' do something' about our neighbors cow..
iddy was proof that one 'can run away' with the circus' and get away with it, but in the end: the circus runs away with us, and make no mistake.

5 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry to hear that Iddy did not make it... you have given Iddy the best life possible and he is happy to be with you. Our thoughts and prayers are with you, Tanja.

    Run, Iddy, run free over the rainbow bridge.

    Licking your sorrow, hero

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  2. Goh, Tanja,

    wat erg. Wat snap ik je verdriet en wat gun ik je vreugde en een gemakkelijker bestaan, maar wat heb jij een moed en kracht in huis om het leven aan te gaan en er toch steeds weer wat van te maken. Ik volg je avonturen en ben ook blij met wat je schrijft, maar nu is er wel even iets anders aan de hand. Geef de moed niet op, er komen vast ook wel weer lichtpuntjes. Maar nu is er verdriet en de behoefte aan troost. Op duizenden kilometers afstand is er iemand die aan je denkt en het fijn zou vinden om wat dichter bij je te zijn om je echte troost te geven. Wie weet, misschien ben ik wel heel dichtbij. Dart hoop ik maar. Liefs Ruben

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  3. Tanja of course I am late in posting on here. I have been so involved with my husband being in the hospital and his surgery and now the recovery I have not been on places I normally hit daily with pretty good consistency. I have heard from you since this awful tragedy but still felt compelled to leave my mark on here for Iddy.
    Iddy will be missed so much, I am sooo very sorry that she is gone. I don't know what to say other than cherish everyday you now have with Elvis and DT as we never know when it will be the last.
    I hope with each passing day the pain eases just a bit, know that Iddy is now running free somewhere and still looking over her mommy.
    Hugs and kisses sent to you sweetie,
    Libby

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  4. Hope your husband is recovering well! and hope you guys are all right! thank you so much for all your support and for posting here, dear Libby, thanks, tanja

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  5. dank je well lieve Ruben,
    dat ging effe heel triest ernaast, en ik zit er nog steeds behoorlijk mee.... lieverd, post eens op faceboek!!! tanja

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